Date:	2007-10-14 09:44
Subject:	So California
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Mood:	bouncy

So, I'm gonna head to California for a weekend because I've never graced that land with my presence before -- so I figure, it's about time. I'll prolly frolic around Disneyland and all the touristy junk and hang out for a weekend sometime in December. Nothing is set in stone yet because it is yet to be determined when I'll be able to actually go but as of now, I plan on going sometime on the 14th of December or what not. Hopefully the plan doesn't fall through. :P Besides, I gotta meet up with all my awesome WoW friends that live in California. About damn time, imo.

work today was awesomely. lotsa learning but going!

Date:	2007-10-01 21:56
Subject:	People
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Mood:	contemplative

I've been dealing with a lot of my own issues in the last couple of weeks. Getting over the ex was a hard deal and quite frankly, I think I'm handling it quite well -- being that it was still fairly fresh. However, I have to deal with other things now that are related to me (in a sense) and it's similar to what I had to deal with. I spent a while talking to a friend of mine about how relationships work. In the bottom line, are you happy with where you are? If you aren't, then clearly it isn't going to work out unless both parties are willing to make the effort to make compromises. I think that after this last relationship, I was the only one giving and giving and getting nothing in return. As much as I loved him and tried my best to defend him, I knew -- that it wasn't going to happen the way I hoped.

One can try and try again and still get nothing -- but at least you know you've tried your best and it just didn't work out. I'm content with my attempts, so I don't feel like I haven't tried hard enough to make it work. Can you say that you truly love your significant other? Can you make sacrifices for them even though it doesn't quite meet up eye to eye with your expectations? If you can't, then I would suggest you look to another place. Unless one is willing to make changes, it won't happen. I've learned that.

NEVER SETTLE FOR SECOND BEST. Always look for something that's the best for you. It'll make you happier in the long run.

** And...learn to be single, it'll do you good **

Date:	2007-09-13 01:43
Subject:	Living the single life
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake

Dear journal,

I'm single and I don't know what to do. I've been wandering around a lot lately, keeping myself busy to distract myself from the emotional set-back but it seems to be going well. I'm setting myself up here and such, so yay me.

P.S

I'm too stubborn to lose. I refuse to let things get me down.

Date:	2007-09-05 01:35
Subject:	Home
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy

So, I'm headed back home this Thursday. I hope to see some of my friends back home. I'll be going back to school as well. On other notes, I got this pimped out pink laptop to fiddle with while I'm at school. Nothing like it. It's nice to have since I need to travel a lot more than I use to.

Date:	2007-05-18 23:32
Subject:	Starcraft 2. Wut wut!
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited

OH SHIT. After 13 years. PUHLEASE. Giveittomenow.

Yeah so I accidentally ran into this on Youtube the other day. Browsing around. Dood, it's awesome. I forgot how much I liked Kamen Rider a long time ago -- though I never kept up, I'm slowly doing so now. I got through a few episodes of Kamen Rider Kabuto as well as the new episodes of Kamen Rider Den-O.

I love the voice of the Ryutaros Imagin. It's kinda creepy and attractive at the same time. I also like the voice of the Turtle dood. :) Apparently he's the seiyuu for Gin from Bleach. Go figure. Anyway, I also figured out why Kamen Rider was totally not famous in the U.S. It's waaaaay too serious for kids to get into. T_T Oh wells.

Date:	2007-04-24 13:24
Subject:	Random Fact
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

Dante (Devil May Cry) is the most beautiful pixelated man EVER. kthx. :)

Off day today, so I got to relax a bit. I did a lot of stuff this past week -- got things done at work and cooked some fish for the family. :P they don't eat very much fish. Today, I bought some salmon and making some num nums for them to eat. Baked salmon with roasted tomato pasta. :P Yummy eh? Anyway, back to mingling.

Date:	2007-03-29 12:01
Subject:	My monitor
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited

will come today. Come to me. /vex

Date:	2007-03-28 19:15
Subject:	Nice day!
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

Amazing day today. Went great at work, took a short time to get there and a short time to get back home! AWESOME. Sunny day all day, no rains, no cloudy. PERFECT. Day off(s) for the weekend, kick ass. I win today.

Date:	2007-03-26 22:53
Subject:	Tired
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted

Been so busy lately. Woo, a good days worth of work and I'm exhausted. Had to close shop for all those days and I'm tired of washing wires and cleaning up the counters, sweeping, brushing stuff down, etc. At least tomorrow I have off. Anyway, as a reward, I bought myself a 22" monitor from newegg, just to present myself with a job well done present. I got to talk to Ben tonight, that was nice to hear from him. I've been working so hard lately I can't seem to coherently figure out dates anymore. It all just meshes together. I can't wait till I save enough for college. :) Anyway, tomorrow, I plan to make some good dinner for the family. It's my off day but I don't want to spend the entire day doing nothing. I also have a couple of days off from work this weekend -- which is awesome. They're understanding about my needs for some days off. I like that. Tonight, I'm going to play some serious WoW. I need to get some pent up frustration outta the way. I'm also going to wash away all the bad mojo today, I think I have lots of it today.

Anyway, Imma make this short. :b until next time.

Date:	2007-03-18 18:20
Subject:	Lazy Weekend
Security:	Public
Mood:	lazy

Well this weekend was easy-mode lazifying, uberly sluggish action. I played WoW all weekend to finally unwind from a hard couple of days of continuous work. (And that incident with Mike pissed me off, but we will resolve it -- answer is simple, I am always right! .. not really but yeah... ) So right now, while Mike is at work, I happily made my very own ... meatloaf. No, you didn't misunderstand or misread, I made meatloaf. If you're interested in the recipe...It's simple.

Eggs, Red Bell peppers, Ground Beef, Flour, Carrots, Onions, and Garlic.
Pop in the oven in 350 degrees F -- give it about an hour or two and voila, insta-comfort.

Tomorrow, COBS is having a fund raiser thing for hopelink (sp?) and I hope that turns out well. I love doing charity-related work, it makes me feel giddy. I start at 10 AM...woo and all da way through the day! My priest is like 39 and some change... I really should level it more but I had to do other things. Me thinks that today, there were lots of things done:

1. Take laundry outta dryer
2. Put dishes in the sink to be washed.
3. Play with the dogs (all 4 of them)
4. Bond with the in-laws (parental units)
5. Level my priest
6. Make dinner
7. Sit here and post a journal entry

I still have to do a full study of COBS stuff for tomorrow -- but that should be pretty easy. I got the gist of it earlier this week and I'm totally pumped for tomorrow and Tuesday (Big opening day). Woot! Time for some serious work. This weekend was supremely relaxing and now, I'm totally pumped to work for a couple of days before another couple of relaxing days. Haha. I'll remember to take pictures tomorrow and post them on my myspace or something. Lets hope for some ass-kicking opening day.

Date:	2007-03-16 20:43
Subject:	I wonder
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted

Sometimes I wonder if I'm being unreasonable? I guess I finally understand why my mom complains so much to me about not having dinner ready when she gets home from a long day of hard work and stuff. When I got home today, I gave a call to mike and asked him to start dinner -- I figured when I get home, I could catch him in the process of making dinner and help him. But no, of course not. Where do I find him? Playing WOW. GEE GOLLY. How did I totally see that coming? I mean seriously. At least if my mom told me to make dinner, I would start something. Nope. Even at this very moment, he's playing WoW acting like he hasn't done anything wrong. Granted I didn't tell him to his face that he should be making dinner now and stop playing WoW but .. I figure I don't want to sound too much like his mom or like my mom for that matter. Go figure. So, I shall make dinner myself. GG.

Date:	2007-03-14 22:32
Subject:	BWARH
Security:	Public
Mood:	hungry

So...lazy...Need to clean up some stuff around the place but for now, it's all good. We did a friends and family night today at COBS and had some wine, free products, etc. I brought home some stuff -- even this veggiemite (sp?) thing that aussies eat? It's like some salty like paste that they made and the bun we have is like ..cheese and veggiemite? I'm so confused by it -- but I'll taste test tomorrow or somefing. Mike came over work and checked out the grand friends and family thing and that was fun. My computer took a dump yesterday due to my own indiscretion and ...yeah, well I suck. Thursday and Friday, I have a full days worth of work and hopefully, once it's said and done, I can head my merry way home and start cooking those things I got recipes for. I'm dying to make a Salmon Dijon thing for the family and see how that works out.

Did I mention that Mike works at Trader Joe's? He gets all the cool junk and I'm jealous. They get to wear hawaiian shirts! For poopie shame! I wants. >< I need to reinstall photoshop and all my other programs. Dagnabit. Anyway, tomorrow, I need to get up fairly early and catch the bus to get there at 12 PM. Hopefully getting there isn't too much of a hassle. Maybe.. I'll draw... or something.

Speaking of which. Kashi's Strawberry Fields cereal is ownage. Like a piece of heaven in my mouth.

Date:	2007-03-13 16:24
Subject:	Days off
Security:	Public
Mood:	restless

Is it just me, or is it difficult to stay at home doing nothing all day after you've gone out a lot and get a job? O.o; I'm going nuts at home not knowing what to do -- wanting to be productive at the same time, breathe some fresh air!! I can't believe I use to do this all the time and I liked it -- well not really liked it, but accepted it. I'm going nuts trying to find something to do and ... nothing. T_T Maybe I'll draw some junk. I need to keep myself entertained. Playing WoW doesn't even appease me anymore. I need to be doing something! Save me! >

Date:	2007-03-10 23:09
Subject:	300
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

So I just got back from watching the 300 movie. IT WAS KICK ASS. Whoever said men in loinclothes are a no go, they are WRONG!

I had my "first" official day of work today, it was awesome. People are so nice out here -- cheerful and not bitter. The bakery smell is AMAZING. I think I smelled of fresh bread all day today -- not complaining or anything. The staff people are a nice bunch and I really look forward to working with them for a while. I got a call back from Bank of America, despite applying there for just shits and giggles(Surprising, really). Tomorrow I have to attend work again at 10 am to 5pm so yeah! I'm pumped to learn more about the company. I figured since I like cooking, it gives me more of an edge over some of the other co-workers (for a raise, etc). What sucks about tomorrow though is the major storm coming to the area. It's going to rain cats and dogs and I have to get out there. YECK.

Remember doods! set your clock 1 hour ahead! Daylights savings time! A little earlier than anticipated but well appreciated. Maybe I'll go play a bit of WoW tonight for a few minutes before heading off to bed.

*I'm reading a Road Less Traveled and it gave me a lot of insight on life. I began to rethink things I've done in the past and try to improve them. Before I do things, I adequetly go through scenarios either during, before, or after the situation has occured. I love the book -- it's like my guide to life.*

On other notes, I got to work safely on my own today. Mike didn't have to go out with me today so it wasn't bad at all. I got to the place safely and everything was peachy. Even got there early to enjoy a cup of mocha(tall) and a blueberry muffin. I had a few samples of COBS products and it was awesome too. If one opens near you, please go and try some stuff -- they got some seriously quality breads and sweets/savory items at a reasonable price.

It was pretty icky today -- spots of rain here and there and kinda cold, but overall it wasn't bad. Mike and I went out to Jack In the Box and it was awesome (I've never been there but I've heard they got some pretty kick ass burgers). I'm making some warm soup right now for the family and hopefully it'll satisfy their stomachs. :P Has carrots, celery, potatos, tomatos, and lotsa carrots. Tomorrow is my first day of work and I'm kinda excited. I had a nightmare last night about being late for work but for some reason my mom was there and so was my dad. Either way, that dream was teh suck.

Tomorrow, I'm probably going to get my work uniform and hand in a lot of paper work cause the manager sent me a hell of a lot of junk. That's good I guess. Did I mention I qualified for the library job. It pays 14.95/hr and it has full benefits. I'm excited to hear back from them. If I get that job, I'd be worry-free cause I'll have insurance here! Yay! Anyway, I can't get myself too hyped up. I started playing WoW again but yanno, after staying away for so long, I can't seem to play it for much longer anymore. I have like brain farts or something. It does pass the time for those boring, slow days but overall -- it isn't anything too majorly exciting.

I'm currently downloading the Adobe Photoshop CS3 Beta just to check out what the major differences there are. I'm sure they're miniscule but who knows. Mike is so adorable. He supports me in a lot of ways. I need a lot of quality time with the person I'm in a relationship with, so he provides that when he can. I'm happy, prolly happiest I've been in a long time. I'm almost worry-free with a few minor things here and there, but I'm overall looking at life in a new light. I use to worry over the littlest things back in NY but here, I feel that I can relax a bit and take things step by step. My mom didn't make it easy on me cause she kept looming over my shoulder but I can do things at my own pace here. I push myself to do things -- and if something goes wrong, I have no one else to blame but myself so I take more responsibility in things. All in all, I think this move was good for me. I will post more about this experience in future journals just to update my views about it, I'm sure but for now, I'm perfectly content.

BTW, that gianormous hill that you have to practically climb to get to Mike's house is almost not a challenge for me anymore. It gets easier and easier everytime. So that's a good thing. I'm either getting in shape or my body is lying to itself. (Which I think it is).

Today was a beautiful day again. 68 degrees, Sun was out and it was perfect! (Amazing, compared to usual Washington weather). Anyway, I had a good time going out and walking the dogs and got some fresh air. I unpacked a lot of things and stored away a good amount of stuff to make room for my computer (that finally arrived today). I'll do some troubleshooting to see what's wrong with this hunk of junk. :P Probably missing or corrupt file in the actual Windows XP thing. Oh wells. I hope that'll fix something.

Date:	2007-03-05 22:04
Subject:	Heroes
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated

WTF BBQ!? April?! T_T ...